Crazy Mood Swing Girl.

Well I've been on break from school for almost a week now.

The adjustment hasn't been going so well to say the least...

I'm SO use to going two trillion miles a second that I've truly forgotten how to relax. How to slow down and just be.

And it's been pretty convenient as a way to NOT deal with uncomfortable/sad/angry feelings I didn't realize were fostering in me.

I knew on some level, but I didn't realize the extent of them as this week I transformed into "CRAZY MOOD SWING GIRL" (eh. Sorry to David)

Well all those pent up feelings have been taking me for a wild ride and most of all...the complete and utter exhaustion has hit me.

I didn't realize how TIRED I was! I'm use to going to school all morning, thinking, thinking, going, going, then off to work, which caring for two babies and keeping the house running and spotless and making two neurotic parents happy all the time is Herculean in and of itself...and then I'd come home and do hours of homework/taking care of my own apartment, etc.

Now that I just have the work thing going on, I come home and I'm like a cranky old goose flapping my wings and crashing about my apartment with my feathers all ruffled. I go from anger, to sadness, to happiness and back. And I was just so restless! I didn't know what to do and the obvious thing, "SLEEP" comes to mind, but I've gotten to where I feel guilty for sleeping!
Like it's a luxury I can't afford and I'm being greedy and gluttonous and lazy and unproductive if I sleep!

So tonight I'm saying "PFFFT." to it all.

I had a really good therapy session.
I saw my good friend, Brittany.

I came home and took a long, relaxing bubble bath and read a book I've been wanting to read for a while but never had the time...I actually read for pleasure again!

It was lovely! and it felt GOOD.

And the content of the book is all about channeling what we all know inherently from the Non-Physical World (where we all have come from) but that we now have forgotten and blocked through the physical world's distractions and manifestations.

It's all about how to channel your positive energy to take the power and create your desired reality.

I really believe we're capable of doing that, and from here on out, I WILL focus on doing just that.

I'm going to attempt to start meditating. I'm going to do something good for myself everyday and most of all, I'M GOING TO SLEEP AND NOT FEEL GUILTY FOR IT!

So, I'm going to end this blog post and get off of here so I can put on my nice warm sheets from the dryer and go to bed.

I'm so damn tired.